Today was Day 3.
It was also Tyler's funeral. That said, you now know how I was feeling all day.
I miss you.
I decided to step out of myself. It was all I could do.
I convinced myself to get out of bed. I worked out. I got dressed up and went to the movies with your sisters. I enjoyed it.
It's been overcast, windy, gloomy, rainy.
It's been beautiful.
Driving home at nearly midnight, the rain was coming down hard. I turned my music off and did something that would surprise you.
No background noise, no distractions, no thoughts beyond the rain and missing you.
Normally, I'd have the music on but tonight, I didn't.
I felt clarity and calm.
All because I listened to the rain.