Update & News

Well we have already notified family of this huge decision so the next step is letting our friends and blog stalkers know whats going on. Here goes.

Cody is enlisting in the US Air Force. Now take a breath and relax. This is something that we have been thinking about for nearly two years and have come to the conclusion that this is whats right for our family. This is a decision that is pertaining to us and our lives. This is something that is only directly affecting Cody & I and support is greatly appreciated.

As some of you may know Cody had a scholarship with the Air Force in high school but lost it due to his knees. When we moved to Utah we thought we'd be able to get ahead in finances and finish school and get a great job lined up but things haven't quite gone that well. We both got jobs and after three weeks both got laid off due to whatever reasons. This is something that brought us yet again to the USAF. We deliberated and of course prayed and this is the decision we have come to. He is in the middle of paperwork right now but we are hoping to get released for the next job drop which is the second week of March.

If all goes as planned he would be selected for the next drop and go to Texas for 8 1/2 weeks of Basic Training. After that is completed he is then sent to Tech School to get trained for his new job. If the school is more than 20 weeks (5 months) I would get to go live on the base with him. After Tech School he would then be assigned his station. That is where our new residence would be. Whatever base he gets assigned to he would be working there and doing night school. The cool thing is that Cody will be able to select jobs that would put him closer to his goal of completing a degree in Mechanical Engineering. Also, while in Tech school, he is receiving college credits. He would have at least 25 more credit hours by the time Tech School is completed.

Another great thing is that since Cody has already completed over 45 credit hours (he has over 60) he is already promoted and that gives us a higher pay grade right off the bat even for BT. After he has completed his Bachelor's he will then be able to apply for Officer status and that bumps us up even higher with the salary.

We are so excited at this new opportunity and are completely confident in this decision. Support from my family is strong which is so helpful especially since we'll be separated for so long. Once he is officially enlisted Cody will be driving me down to Arizona to stay with my sister until his Basic Training is completed. I am so excited to be able to be back with my family!

We do realize things will take a little bit longer with this route but this is giving us stability, and in the long run, so much more than we would get from anything else. Yes it'll be tough but we are ready and willing to make sacrifices for the betterment of our future and our family.

Well wishes are welcome. We love you all and hope all is well with you in your lives.


Cody & Rachelle Steele

(Delegated by Mr. Cody himself)



Hello all! it was that time again. Birthday time that is. Cody turned 21 yesterday and I did my absolute hardest to make it a good day for him. He was lucky enough to be able to sleep in. I then piled his presents onto his lap and as you will see in the pictures, he was still half asleepish.

My parents got him a George Foreman Grill. Dont let the yawn fool you, he is really excited. I got him jelly bellies, a movie, and my mom also got him two shirts he is really excited for as well. Robyn, his mom, got us a new washer. Yae!!!

After presents I made him an amazing breakfast if I do say so myself. After which we just relaxed for most of the day. We did go to his Nana's house later and had a good dinner with his mom and nana and sisters. he also got another gift from his mom and his nana which were so sooo grateful for. He then of course has his customary funfetti cake that had been refrigerated. We then had a great evening just being together.

I love this man so much! He is so absolutely amazing and treats me so well. I am incredibly lucky to be with him.


Brighter Than Sunshine

So the title of this blog is actually a song. A phenomenal song that I have always loved. This blog is actually some of my late night ramblings from a while back and I came across it and realized its the same stuff I am goin through right now. I love writing and have all of my stuff scattered on different web sites and in notebooks and random files on our computer. I have decided as I come across them I will publish them on here as I see fit. Also... Lately I have been thinking and thinking about wanting to somehow put our blog into a hard copy like a journal type thing and I have discovered Blurb!! Its a fantastic site where you can import or export (not sure which would be correct in this context) your blog with pictures and all and create a color hard backed book! I think I will do one yearly. Alright that's it. Here is my rambling portion.

Monday, June 16, 2008

brighter than sunshine
Current mood: forgotten
Category: Life

i'm not really sure where i'm going to go with this but i'm going.

its now 12:38 on monday morning. sunday consisted of me FINALLY going to urgent care. for the last two weeks i've been really fighting a lot of things just attacking my body. diagnosis: advanced bronchitis, sinus infection, ear infection, and weakened lungs. hmmm, got three prescriptions that are supposed to make me better. this is just one more thing on top of a million other things that got me thinking, questioning, reeling... the list could really go on and on but i'm too tired. what did people do way back when there weren't urgent cares and a ton of steroids and medications that we could take 3 times a day and magically get better? why are we as a society, as a world so reliant on.... everything but ourselves? sure we can all strive to be so called independent, self-reliant individuals but when it really comes down to it, we are not.

my friend hayley posted something a couple days ago that really got me pondering my life and my current circumstances. i am 20 years old. i'm married to an amazing man who loves me despite me. i should be the happiest person on earth and yet i am so discontent. i am not discontent with my marriage, i am not discontent with my surroundings or my environment but i am entirely discontent with me. with myself. i also have absolutely no one but to blame but myself.

my husband is younger than i yet he is so much further ahead in life than i. he has two years of school left. he has known what he's wanted for most of his life. sure he had bumps in his road and his plan didn't go exactly the way he planned but he rolled with it extremely well. he handled and continues to handle his life with a grace that i envy.

i am not ungrateful by any means. we have two fairly new, really nice vehicles that run well and serve their purpose. we have a really nice apartment that does more than serve its purpose. i have an amazing man who stands by me through all my instability. we have loving supporting families. we have a faith and religion that gives us hope and something to believe in. i know that in a couple years i'll have a baby and someone that depends entirely upon me. i am so completely blown away by how utterly blessed i am.

at the same time i still have these stirrings within myself that leave me feeling so let down, so discontent. it wasn't until tonight that i think i pinpointed where they are coming from. get this, it was while watching a lot like love. i guess life happens when we least expect it too right? i think that these feelings continue to grow and swell because (1) i push them aside and dont ever work through them and (2) because my life is staying the same. i, rachelle steele am pretty much the same person i've been since i was 16. its really quite silly when i think about it because i pride myself on being such a strong, unique individual and i am not. not deep down. i have so many unresolved feelings that originated oh, probably back in junior high. that sounds a little juvenile doesn't it?

growing up i always swore i'd be happy no matter what and that my friends would always be my friends and that no matter where i ended up i'd never have regrets. now i always tell others and myself that i don't have regrets. i guess i wouldnt call them regrets because if i didnt go through everything i've gone through, and make all the decisions i've made, then i wouldnt be the rachelle that i am. that sounds contradictory to the other things i'm saying but regrets just isn't the right word.

i havent quite gotten to the point where i've stated my new resolves but i'll get there. right now i know what i need. i need to stop comparing myself to every other soul around me because if i keep doing that, it'll be my internal demise. i am me. i've never really apologized for being me and i don't think i ever will. i am me.

i need to figure out what career a want to pursue. i need to write more. its such a fantastic outlet for me. you know, i started writing a book about 6 months ago. i said i wanted to write a book for about 5 years and i finally began it. but after working 6 hours on the opening, i shut my lap top and haven't looked at it since. its rather sad that the thing i crave and love is something that i can never just quite summon the energy for. i'm the sole identity to blame for that. i need to say thank you more. i need to tell people i love the more. i need to start making myself a better person. i need to work on my "friendships". that is one more thing i can blame on myself. i need to change. i really do.

another thing i need to do is go crawl in bed next to my husband. i suppose this is enough for tonight (or this morning) either way this is enough.


Currently listening :
Strange and Beautiful
By Aqualung
Release date: 2006-01-17


Oh I am so sick and sooo bored. here is a Hubby Surv

Here's a chance to see how well you really know your husband. Cut, paste and fill in the answers.

1. He's sitting in front of the TV, what's on the screen? if we had tv it would be something on the discovery channel most likely mythbusters or dirty jobs. if its evening it would be espn.

2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad? Ranch

3. What's one food he doesn't like? He despises cucumbers and green beans.

4. You go out to eat and have a drink; what does he order? Dr. Pepper or Mr. Pibb occasionally a sprite or root beer

5. Where did he go to high school? basha high school

6. What size shoe does he wear? 10 1/2 and 11 mainly 11's

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be? cars

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich? he loves ham and swiss with mustard but at subway he loves chicken bacon ranch

9. What would he eat every day if he could? he loves wings. loooves ribs anything that is chicken or bbq or both

10. What is his favorite cereal? he is so not a cereal person but he does enjoy fruit loops

11. What would he never wear? tough... he'd probably wear anything once haha

12. What is his favorite sports team? when i first met him it was ohio state and denver broncos i have learned that it also extends to asu sundevils, alabama and cardinals? i think thats it for his quote on quote favorites.

13. Who did he vote for? McCain

14. Who is his best friend? me. i guess he has his goodbuddies but no one he really hangs out with. there is robby and chad. used to be andy luke

15. What is something YOU do that he wishes YOU wouldn't do? be so ocd about things he thinks dont matter.

16. You bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind of cake? funfetti that has been sitting in the fridge

17. Did he play sports in high school? Football and wrestled. they were the demise of his knees

18. What could he spend hours doing? watching football or playing ghost recon with friends or looking at beautiful and outrageously expensive cars

19. What is one unique talent he has? he is a problem solver. he loves math and can figure out pretty much any problem thrown at him. he also knows how to calm me down which is a good talent indeed.

Some Random and Little Known Facts About Yours Truly

• I just moved to Utah after a lifetime of swearing I would never live here. I am now eating my words.

• I have one sister who is ten year older than me, 3 older brothers, and one younger brother.

• I have OCD. It is pretty bad.

• I have horrible eyesight but with my glasses, my left eye is nearly 20/20 while my right eye is still nearly blind.

• I have always hated the fact that I do not have a middle name.

• I have several things I want to major in but have chosen the two I think I can the most good with. A bachelor's degree in early childhood development and eventually a doctorate in child psychology.

• I have had a TON of different jobs, but being a nanny is the only one I have ever truly enjoyed.

• I am shameless when it comes to the shows I follow.
They are as follows: Monday- The Hills, The City, Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill
Tuesday- 90210
Thursday- Ugly Betty, Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice
Sunday: Desperate Housewives

• My husband has never seen my natural hair color.

• I have always resented my skin type. I have pale, sensitive, freckle covered skin but am starting to be okay with it. Kind of.

• My biggest fear is being brutally attacked or murdered or having it happen to someone I love namely my husband.

• I hate my big toes. HATE HATE HATE

• I am terrified of clowns. Not just real clowns, pictures or statues or whatever. They are freaky and gross.

• I don't really know where to cross the line when it comes to what comes out of my mouth. I am very outspoken and tend to offend people when I talk.

• I love to write.

• I Love to read. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE it.

• I have really bad blood circulation. My feet are always ice cold no matter the season as are my hands. Even in ARIZONA SUMMERS.

• I love stars. The shape.

• I love photography and music and art. I can't seem to appreciate them enough or get enough of them.

• I love anything sparkly or glittery. All pretty things in general.

• I hate being the center of attention. I hate it. I don't like speaking in front of people, or having people ask me questions about myself, being sung to on my BDAY. When those situations do arise my heart races, my palms sweat, I get nervous and shaky, and oft times I will cry.

• I'm a republican: Because not everyone can be on welfare. Not everyone should be on welfare. I also do not like the idea of my hard earned money being "evenly disbursed" (SOCIALISM) to a bunch of lazy people who would be able to afford good health care if they got off their baked booties and got a job.

• I absolutely hate hate hate when liberals (or anyone) try to back up their claims by using articles/scenes from anything related to Michael Moore, New York Times, or TIME Magazine. Saying you're a liberal because you've been reading TIME Magazine is like saying you're a republican because you saw An American Carol.

• I went to a high school where we were taught the true way of government and the way it is supposed to work. I learned about how perverted everything has become and how the ingenious and sacred principles our country was first founded on have been completely ignored. It honestly does scare me to death to see America's original fundamentals forsaken and scoffed at by others who promote "change" The kind of change that we are headed for is not the kind of change I am proud of. At all.

• I am very passionate about my beliefs. Religious, political, social, and any/all others. Can't you tell?

• I am completely baby hungry. I have been since I was like 16 and its only gotten worse. Part of the reason why I ADORE being a nanny.

• I love a good action movie. I love explosions and gun fights.

• I am in the process of writing a novel.

• I also want to have another book published that is composed of all my short stories, poems, rants, etc.

• Most people (no one) don't know this but Cody David Steele saved my life. Literally. He did this twice.

• I love having my nails and toe nails painted.

• I believe in an afterlife. I also believe that there are portals open that allow certain communications to be able to happen. Not full on ghost-whispering but something along those lines.

• It is very rare that I can connect with someone and have a true and deep friendship with them. There are only 4 people in the world that that has happened and I really feel as if they were my best friends in the pre-life. Only 3 are still alive. Even if I don't see or talk to them for months or even years, when we reconnect its as if no time has ever gone by. There's no way I can explain it.

• I am totally and completely PRO DEATH PENALTY. I think we should be executing a lot more people then we do! And I think that Capital Punishment should be a sentence for all proven child molesters. Do something bad, get punished. The Bible did it, and God says we should too.

• I am all for the right to bear arms. I grew up with guns in the home, my brother is now a cop and always has a gun on him. I cannot wait to get registered and get my concealed weapons license. I think when people are against them its because they are scared of protecting themselves and it shows how absolutely naive they are. If that right gets taken away that is going against the second ammendment and will continue to show Americans that the direction in which we are headed is sooo not good.

some melo-drama and tmi

alright people i know my last post was a little crazy but i had to share. so its back to the job search and so far there is nothing but we're keepin the faith. it always seems as if it doesnt just rain on us it tends to pour but it always makes us a whole lot stronger.

on sunday after i got that infamous phone call i got hit with something i absolutely dread. bad cramps people. women you all know what im talking about. no fun no fun. monday was worse and tuesday was horrible. i was throwing up and passing out from the pain so cody had his cousin whitney come sit with me until he got home. she is such a sweetheart!!

to top it all off i now have a uti so im dealing with that so hopefully the antibiotics will have this all taken care of just in time for us to have a good weekend.

we didnt do much on valentines day, us being broke and all but we were so excited just to be able to spend some time together. we had an all night movie marathon and had so much fun.

we still are having to do our laundry over at cody's nana's house but its not too bad. it means we get plenty of visit time with his family and cody gets to practice his pool skills. i think there has only been like 3 times he has beat me. i must say i kick his butt more often than not when it comes to billiards. he does take the cake with guitar hero though.

thats it for us. we hope all is well with you in your busy lives. love you!!


A Bit Angry

So I am pretty angry right now. Disappointed and frustrated and flat out angry. I just got a call from my perfect ideal family who wanted me as their nanny for at least a year and was laid off. This for lack of a better word, SUCKS. Yeah I said it. They decided to have their mother's watch the baby because they are family and it wont cost them as much. Yae for family. Its back to the job search for me. Just in time for the Holiday Weekend. This is a little like deja vu for me. Last time I got laid off from a nanny position was the day before I went on vacation. Woopdedoo. I am feeling fantastic.



FIRST OFF!! Let me just say how disappointed I am in every single one of you (MAINLY FAMILY) for thinking that we would have the gall and the audacity, not to mention the lack of consideration for your feelings. We would NEVER, I repeat NEVER post something as fantastic and exciting as us expecting a baby on our blog without FIRST letting you all know personally or over the phone. *This goes for you too Miss Amelia*

Now that that is over with, I would like to share with you what I consider to be the best stuff ever. What I do every day, and what I see while I am there.

This my dear friends is SIROHI. He is the most mellow baby ever and I am lucky enough to be his nanny. He is so much fun to just hang out with all day.

Now Sirohi lives in what I consider to be a castle. He and his parents reside in The Avenues. This used to not mean much to me but now that I have been there for a bit, I now realize and appreciate the beauty tht is in The Avenues.

There are the biggest and most beautiful homes I have ever seen. The view out the expansive windows are spectacular and are made even more so in a snow storm. Take a gander.

These are views that are normally clear and usually would show the massive State Capital Bldg and most of the downtown skyline.

This is a look out the back and then upwards to the house behind.

I being the dreamer that I am told Cody that if we get stuck here after he is done with school, I mean long enough for us to need a home, I would want an Avenues home.

I know, I know... DREAM BIG.



So this is actually old news but I havent shared it yet so I thought I would. I was finally able to find a job about three weeks after we moved here. Its a nanny position and I am so stoked for it. Its just one baby boy. He is about 11 weeks old now. SOOOO cute too. Its even more fantastic because its a secure job!! Both of the parents are doctors so I won't be getting let go. HAHA

Second bit of news is that we're pregnant!!!


Oh man I wish! So after searching and searching and nothing happening we gave up and Cody took the position doing maintenance here at the apartments. Last resort but its good. He just started on Monday. So he comes in for lunch today and lo and behold he had gotten a call and he has a new job! He will be doing medical billing like 3 miles away from where we live for a great company. They have good benefits too I think and he will finally be making more than he was at Rural Metro. YAAAAEE.

So we are happy campers and just thought we'd share it with you guys.

PEACE &hearts


Ode to my Mama

my wonderful parents

my beautiful mama
I have amazing parents. they love their children unconditionally and are such great examples of Christ-like followers and the love that they share is unbreakable. Let me just say that I have the most fantastic mom known to man. She is so sweet and giving and even though every time I talk to her on the phone I cry, I always feel better in the end. She has so much life experience and advice she gives and shares freely and I owe her so much. I love you mom!! (and dad)