2.22.2012

So Much Easier In Theory

I often wonder how deeply rooted human nature is in all of us as individuals.

We're here on Earth in every bit of its imperfect existence, struggling to get a grip on the reality that surrounds us. It is indeed necessary for us to grasp that reality but an even more critical part of the equation that allows us to attain some semblance of peace, contentment, and happiness, still remains. We must not only strive to reach that goal but as we do so, its absolutely mandatory that we not get sucked into the realm of uncertainty and doubt that fights so strongly to deter, confuse, and break us.

Even if there is but an ounce of honesty in your heart, you must keep forging ahead no matter how rough the obstacles may be. To not do so would be tantamount to the defrauding of yourself and others and the knowledge of that regret will hang over you for the entirety of your life.

I do believe that giving into a small bit of that human nature we all have in us, giving into that nagging voice in your head that seems to be undeterridely taunting you, is just as vital as pushing through whatever doors seem to be closed to you and your flickering hope.

We are not expected to have all of the answers and we most certainly are not held to the impossibly high standard of being stoic and indifferent to whatever turmoil may be plaguing us. We are not expected to be anything but ourselves while trying our utmost to remain close to our own hearts.

Without all of the dark and twisted roads we are required to travel, there would be no reason for us to continue to learn what we can and glean every bit of insight and knowledge possible.

If you feel as if you can no longer stand, if your legs are weak and shaky, it is time to fall to your knees. Showing emotion is not a flaw. Tears are nothing to be ashamed of but instead things to be admired. If you break down and the flood gates of emotion unhinge themselves, it is not a time to duck and run. If your heart hurts and you can no longer feign complacency, it does not mean you are feeble or irresolute or desultory.

Quite the contrary in fact.

If you begin to falter, it simply means you have been too strong for too long. Moreover, if you are no longer able to dissimulate or advertise your counterfeit opulence, it simply shows that your heart beats, hurts, and loves.

My heart hurts.

6 comments:

Sue said...

This is beautifully written. I'm sorry for whatever has made your heart hurt.

No Model Lady said...

Lovely post, but bittersweet in it's message. Hope the hurt passes soon.

jack+alli said...

You have a beautiful way with words. I'm sorry you're hurting. Xoxo and prayers!

Erin said...

Beautiful Post!

JG said...

I'm sorry, honey. ((hugs))

chambanachik said...

*hugs*