There comes a time when the ever-recurring cycle breaks you.
There comes a time when you stop because you are just...

tired of the fight.

When is the end of the rope?
When does the tide stop coming in, pounding your will relentlessly, over and over and over?

Why is faith and love not enough?

Despair resides where only you can see and feel while all others meager attempts at glimpsing a fraction of what is your reality, fall before they even take flight.

Who draws the line?
Who says when its been enough?

After a while, you let the tide take you.
After the long days and nights, weeks and months, and years that feel like eternities have knocked you down so many times, the small flickering light of hope goes out.

It gets to the point that you see what your reality has become and its easier to just...



R said...

You ok honey? I'm only an email away if you need to talk.

Erin said...

I have no clue if we have the same situation going on, probably not, but I just posted a similar sentiment on my blog last night... Though, yours is more eloquently put and mine sounds more pathetic and weepy.

I hope that whatever troubles you are struggling through provide you strength on the other side.

I'm sorry if I'm a bit out of the loop, I've been gone from the blogger world for a little while.

Katie said...

I feel like while our chat helped me, if just made you hurt more and I feel just awful about that. We need to have a skype coffee date or something, I think it would do us both a lot of good.

Team Mama said...

You are always in my heart and in my prayers...